My insides break, struggling for an escape. There no door, what is it I am longing for? A new lease, a new life, a new feeling where everything happening doesn't just feel like a roll of the dice. A day to day bell rings, with many things misleading. I am cast alone, vast within in … Continue reading Loneliness
My inner world is BEAUTIFUL. It's full of Love. It's full of Trust. It's full of Surrender..... It's full of acceptance, full of kindness, full of compassion, full of allowing. It's full of softness and gentleness. But then I go into the world of people. And it's full of noise, full of distrust, full of … Continue reading My Inner World
A meeting and attraction that comes from nowhere and explodes like a bomb in your face. It seduces you with a chemistry and connection that burns through your entire being. Feeling like you truly feel alive for the first time. It consumes you. You never expected it would be like this. It elevates you. It's … Continue reading The Journey.
A morning walk to a little churchyard, Near the sea, not too near or far. A misty drizzle is in the air, Leaving a moist imprint upon your hair. The fog like a comforting blanket in its density, Creating the atmosphere of a surrounding mystery. A low background buzzing of nearby boats, Friendly chats with … Continue reading A misty Spring morning.
I am not my traits. I am not this 'Condition'. My labeled diagnosis of 'Aspergers', unfortunately, instantly puts me into a box of 'lower' judgment and supposedly expected behaviors. Others view of me can change in a FLASH once they hear this label. They no longer view me as the fiery, creative, independent and wise … Continue reading I Am The Freedom Of Colour.
A lot of men find me fascinating. A bright flame of vigorous life they find captivating. A lustful specimen. Interesting. Wild and deep. A mystery. They want to get closer, get to know me better. Most want to 'capture' me, 'tame' me. Make me theirs. Many naively believing they have got what it takes to … Continue reading You Are Not Worthy Of Me.
Just because I don't say anything doesn't mean I don't see; the tried and subtle manipulations used upon me. Just because I continue to smile and be friendly; doesn't mean I haven't instantly read your energy. Just because I continue to be civilised; doesn't mean I don't see through your deepest disguise. Just because I may … Continue reading Just Because I’m Quiet…..
I am sensitive. I am vulnerable. Sometimes I can be needy. So what...love me anyway. I can be impatient. I can be judgemental and hypocritical. So what...love me anyway. I can be quick to anger. I can be egotistical, and I can be vain. So what....love me anyway. Sometimes I will be selfish. And maybe … Continue reading So What…Love Me Anyway.
I feel like I desperately need to be heard. Is anyone listening? Can anyone TRULY see and understand the real me? Where is he who can value and appreciate me for me? Can anyone else perceive the truth and wisdom that I carry within? Can anyone be my much-needed rock? The one who encourages me … Continue reading LONE-WOLF.
Something was cast out long ago on that lonely December night. Do you remember the dreams that were tossed away in a cloud of the doubting mind? You had a single sweet tear drop running softly down your face. It glistened in the midnight moon, being held by its embrace. The Moon watched compassionately, taking … Continue reading REALM OF MOON DREAMS.